half alive

i've clearly decided I'm tired of love picking me up and throwing me down....
When ever i hear the song jar of hearts one part describes me perfectly "i learn to live half alive."
And its true i am only living half alive.
My life is meaningless
I often wonder through out everyday what would happen if i just ran away
would anyone notice or even care.
Would i find something to awaken whats dead inside of me aka my heart
Love is overrated.
It hurts
It kills
It makes you wanna disappear or better yet just die all together.
I grow tired of this stupid charade I'm done with it.
Purely done.
I cant take anymore
I just wanna die alone since I'm only half alive anyway