You want to let them out but something holds you back.
Some people go day to day holding back their real feelings.
I know that i do.
Most of those feelings eat me up inside and when i let some slip out i hurt others around me.
I've learned over my life that helping your self is the only way to go.
No one else can help you.
People are so easy to decievce.
You can make them think anything you want them to.
You can make them think your okay when your world is crashing down.
I can make anyone believe what i wish them to believe.
That I'm happy when i hate everything about my life.
That I'm okay when i feel like everything is falling apart.
I've learned that once you get back up you get kicked back down.
I often wonder if its better just to stay down.
I wonder why fight it.
Whats the point.Just stay down and maybe it won't hurt as much.
But on and on i go still fighting for what again? Life? Love?
Oh i love. I love deeply. Even that hurts more. Sometimes I'd rather continue being pushed down the be hurt for love.
I lie daily. I pretend everything is great when its not. Things are never going to be good. So I'll just keep pretending and holding it all in.
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